Here I am to blog again...Actually, I'm not suppose to, since I'm having a minor test tomorrow. Just wanna to vent out my frustations a little....By right, I should have done it long ago, but I do not really have the time. Somehow, I remember that I did blog, but I did not see the post which I've written last week. Damn stupid...I do not really what went wrong...no wonder, all my friends asked me to update my blog which I've actually done so.
Well, I guess I've to go all over again. It happened last week, when I'm having my lunch in the school canteen happily, I was starving and ordered some rice with veggies. While I was eating halfway through, guess what? I spotted two worms on the veggies, the moment I saw "them", I feel like puking all the food I've eaten earlier on. I don't need that extra protein. What the ...?? I'm stunned, alright?! Is this the standard of food they can give me...?? Morever, I found the worms in the food of a school canteen, please...I'm refering to "school"...There are students here, I don't think the food in school is really safe for them to consume either.
When I just reached here not long, my teachers actually warned us not to eat the food from the streets or order food delievery cause the food might be unclean. They recommend us to eat our meals daily in the school canteen. I guess after the situation I've been through, I would not believe in their words anymore. Sorry! I couldn't trust the food they served here...Luckily, that night I didn't have to puke or having to go to the toilet umpteen times.... Phew!!
No wonder I've been having infection with my digestive system, obviously the hygiene over here, still unable to meet the standards in Singapore. I'm not trying to say China is not good, but I guess they need to improve on their food somehow, at least for their citizens, don't you guys think so?
Other than that, I simply don't like the level of hygiene in the toilets here. I guess you guys know I've been to the hospital twice. I've actually try not to mention it on my blog. But now, I'm going to expose the level of hygiene here, in the hospital 's toilets. You guys know about certain Singapore's coffeshops which have very dirty toilets, you can actually find this kind of toilet in the hospital here. Please take note: What I've mentioned earlier on, it's actually the hospital, not any other places, okay?! They don't even have toilet bowls, but some drain sewage for you to do your business??! I'm not saying all the hospitals here have dirty toilets, I'm only referring to some, especially those which I went to when I'm sick?
Okay, enough talking about the toilets!! I guess whatever things we talk about,as long as there's the bad side, there will be the good side. Actually, China is not that bad after all, especially when you shopped here..?? It's cheap, nice and fun. Why? Cause, you can actually bargain the price of the things you wanted to buy with the auntie, it's like auction, but we are actually bidding with lower prices instead of giving higher prices which the previous buyer wanted?! This part is really fun!! You can even see them quarreling with one another just because the sellers are not satisfied with the price you gave. I saw a ferocious one...really tigress...*roars..!! Haha..
I bought a lot of things yesterday; a bag, a wallet, a 3 quarter pants, a dolly sphagetti, a very "short"short and two necklaces. I guess I have to cut down on all these a bit, cause later on I still need to get some souvernirs for my buddies back there in Singapore. I'm coming back soon, don't miss me too much, another 50 more days.
(Sorry for the poor English, no time to check again..Hahaha)
Hugs & love... Jin
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11:33 pm
Friday, May 18, 2007
Last few days, I have not been feeling well but...somehow I have learnt to overcome it. If not, I am going to spend a huge some of money over my medical fees again. I think those money which I spent on my health is equivalent to the sum of money for buying a condominium, I suppose?! Well, I intend to forget all these sorrows and await the day whereby I leave here. There are several times I wanted to give up and leave here early. Fortunately, thank to those friends here who gave me lots of encouragement again and again...
Anyway, Hui Jun celebrated her birthday on Wednesday, a memorable one, I guessed. Her clinque invited us over and we handed over our birthday present, the shoes. I'm glad that she loved the shoes. After that, her clinque actually made a video presentation for her to view. All of us watched the video silently, I guessed it was pretty touching cause I think it was not easy for them overcoming so many obstacles together. . Even, our Dear Carmen cried over the video. I think the video was pretty sweet till now...and it consists their love in making the video for her. She should forget all the troubles she had and hang onto the happiness she had all the while.
As for yesterday I went shopping, bought a number of stuff for myself, to pamper myself a little bit. Quite an enjoyable day! I even bought a pair of shoes, quite high, wonder if I'm able to walk well with it? Other than that, I bought a jeans skirt for my friend, having the similar design as mine, wonder if she would mind?Gotta go ask her....
After this, I needed to buy some porridge for myself to eat. So, I get Pamela to accompany me?As for Janice and Pei Jun, they went to our school minimart to get something. After we bought the porridge, I asked Pamela if we needed to give them a call and asked them where they are? Pamela said we should, but her handphone have no more credit in it. As for me, I did not save their numbers, so I asked Pamela to give me their numbers so that I could make the call. She told me the number and I actually found it quite familiar, but I ignored it and made the call. After making the call twice, then she told me that the number actually was mine. I laughed till ..I did not know what I can say anymore. I got one 1988 funny friend is more than enough, Now, I got another 1987 blur friend to accompany me. I guess my life is full of anticipating events. I need to learn how to enjoy those events with them.
Loves & Hugs.... Jin
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9:53 pm
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
Today, I have a tiring day. Probably, I slept too late the last night. Well, I've been thinking about my life journey. Why my life turn out to be this way? I guess I shouldn't put so much concentration on all these. Since I'm into it, why not live my life to the fullest? Since I can't make anymore changes, I might as well make amendments to my life. I will try harder, even harder in this module, though somehow I don't feel it suits me. I saw all the comments I've received, I'm very touched, knowing there were still friends who were there for me.
Yesterday, I booked a cake online for my mum, wishing her Happy Mother's Day on this Sunday. I hope that she know how I really feel, my way of appreciating my love to her. I just want her to know I am still her daughter who will stick to her, even though I'm going to turn 21 next year. I might be an adult soon, but I still want to be her daughter who will "Sa Jiao" to her. Hope she won't find me annoying?! There are times when I quarrel with her, make her feel sad and angry, but she's definitely someone whom deserve my love more than anyone else, cause her love for me is far more that I can ever imagine in my entire life. When I fell sick in China, her anxiety really made me felt that I'm important to her. She was so lost that she almost bursted into tears. To such an extent, she commanded me to return back to Singapore, forget about serving the MOE bond, though I needed to pay MOE a huge sum of money. I guess all our mothers will care for us, so remember to give her a call and tell her how much you love her on this special day.
Back to the topic, today when I'm having lessons halfway, my "1988" friend, Pei Jun, produced a weird sound , "Jiang" ("Question Mark" popped out from my head)while she was holding my spectacle case, talking to it?! I looked at her with atonishment and asked her what had happened. Before she could even explained, she bursted out into laughter, I remembered her face was as red as a tomato. The next moment, she laughed until she cried. After our lessons ended, she told us she was playing with my spectacle case and talking to it, she probably needed to go Mental Hospital.When we went back to our hostel, I saw a butterfly on her umbrella in the balcony. Next moment, she went to sing a song in front of the butterfly, with her hands banging real hard onto the panes of the balcony door. The song goes like this : "Hu Die, Hu die, Chuang De Zhen Mei Li........."I'm really stunned. She's really a funny girl.
Recently, I have two friends feeling sad over certain matters. I feel really bad for them as I can't do much for them, their feelings really affected me, be it close or good friends. All I can do is to give my comments, if they can straighten out their thoughts, that will be really great! Sometimes, I feel bad and helpless so cause all I can do is to give advices, I can't allievate their pain, so I can only pray for them, hope that they can be happy...Please...
I also need to apologise on another matter. To my Sec Sch friends: I will reply all the emails you guys sent me, sorry for being so heartless, I still wanna to let you guys know I miss all of you badly. I hope all this will end soon....Do take care and help each other out, that's what friends are for. :)
I love all my friends to be happy...love you guys.......
Love & hugs.... Jin....
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11:29 pm
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
Today, I got back my History Test result. I studied damn hard for it, but yet, all my efforts gone to waste. Sometimes, I really feel like giving up this course. I would want to be very frank about this. If not for the MOE contract, I don't think I will be able to pull through "this long", to the extent of coming to China and improve on my Chinese.
Though, I do not really know what I am lost about. But, I just feel that I don't seem to be "destined" to study this course. Probably, it's a bit too late for me to say all this. It is already my third year since I entered this course, Idid try to study hard for all my modules, but my results just don't show. I am really afraid that my teachers will reproach me for being lazy, for not studying hard, when I am already trying super hard. Luckily, this time round this History test only took up 20% of this whole module, if not, I might have to stay in China for another few more months to study and complete this whole module.
I try to persuade myself that I just need to work hard the next time round.This is what I have been doing so far, I can only pray hard for my next History Exam's results to be better. I will try hard at the same time too.
These few days, I am emotionally not well. Probably, my family and friends are not around so I started to feel a bit lonely. Especially during the late nights, when the lights are off and I lie on the bed, I feel very solemn, very alone. I know all my Poly friends are with me but still, I suppose all of us feel the "same", which is homesick. We did not cry together but still, I think we do feel the "same". Now, I can really understand what is "Homesick". Sometimes, I really wonder why I have to go through all this, is this for myself, for my future or for the sake of moulding my character? I have no answer, I will keep searching and searching...for my answer...
Sorry for the grammatical errors..My English sux.. :)
Love & Hugs, Jin......
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8:08 am
Friday, May 04, 2007
To those who are concerned about me: Left with 76 more days...I pray hard that I will be able to endure till 15th of July ..To leave China, hurry back to Singapore...
Singapore, You're really a wonderful country...... I really regret deeply for not treasuring my time over there.. Falling sick & sick again over here (in China), it makes me realise how "soft" a human being can be... Really have to cherish everything you have while you have the chance..before it's too late!! After I fell sick, I start to learn how to appreciate my family better..(I really miss them) Other than that, I knew that I'm really lucky to have my friends here, if not I would not know how can I pull through without their care..??
So a big "THANK YOU" to you guys: Be it those who gave me their regards or those who took care of me..I really appreciate you guys... After this lesson, I have learnt to be more strong-willed..I should not be that "weak" anymore, I need to grow up!! I'm no longer a "girl girl", I am an adult, going to hit 20 years old in 18th of June this year... My parents won't be with me forever. I've learn that there is not such thing as "forever" too. Therefore, it's time for me to learn how to take good care of myself... From now onwards, I have to live with a stronger mindset, deal things more responsibly and more independently...
I felt like shouting this aloud to all of my friends and family, there it goes : I love all of you deeply...I will treasure every minute, every second with you guys...
Love & Hugs, Jin...
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The Lyrics
Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
and it was all in vain
Time starts to pass before
you know it you're frozen
Oh, but something happened
for the very first time with you
My heart was melted to the ground
found something true
And everyone's looking round
thinking I'm going crazy, baby
But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
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Keep, keep bleeding love
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Trying hard not to hear
but they talk so loud
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my ears try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal is to
keep me from falling (Ohh...)
Oh, but nothing's greater than
the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me thinks
that I'm going crazy (Crazy) maybe (Maybe)
But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
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Keep, keep bleeding love
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And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see
'Cause I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
Oh, you cut me open and I
I keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
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My Profile
Name: Chen Pei Jin
Age: 21
Birthday: 18th June 1987
Favourite Animal: Dog
Favourite Song: It's up there!
Favourite Movie: None..
Favourite Marine Life: Dolphins
My Wishlist
1st: Turn back time and bring her back..
2nd: All friends and family to be happy & healthy..
3rd: See real dolphins...at least once.. :)
