After so many "upset" kind of incidents happen, finally I got one joyful moment which I want to pen down. It's the Graduation day...
I woke up at 9.30am but Missy Pei Jin still can be late. (Same Pattern As Ever) She suppose to report 12pm at the convention hall for briefing. The best part is the other day, she asked her sistas to help her buy a formal shirt and some more, it has to be long sleeve, faints... (Recently, I just bought lots of formal shirt but none of them is long sleeve one, luck is really not on my side huh..) *blinks So, Pei Jin should reach there earlier in order to try and see if it's okay or not.
However, after she woke up, she went to take her bath and changed herself. After that, she still need to make up and then eat. Her father come and fetch her with his cab and then the handphone rings. "Pei Jin, where are you? Do you know that everybody reach already? faster come, we enter the convention hall first and wait for you there." Carmen said. (there was some background noises) Carmen continued,"Pei Jin, you wait ah.. " Carmen hand her precious handphone over to Pam , Pam said this "Later, you get your shirt from Carmen's mum, she will be waiting for u at convention hall." She hung up..
Shucks, at the moment, Pei Jin quickly ask her father to speed. Off she go, by that time I reached the Convention Hall is 12pm exactly. I saw Carmen's mother waiting for me with her little brother and Carmen's big guy. Her mum pass me the shirt. woo hoo..heng.. hahaha (I was darn embarrassed, to think I would let someone's mum wait for me..Sorry auntie...)
I do not have anymore extra time. I say thanks auntie and then ask them where shall I head to. Then I run quickly with my bag and paper bag on my hand, looking frantically for the lecture room which I supposed to go in. Darn, I haven't change my clothes yet. I quickly went to the nearest toilet change my super duper expensive shirt (hahaha, heard from pam, it's $47 plus, thanks sistas, I luv it anyway) . My hair was in a mess, but no time to comb it. (piang, do I have to be mad woman?) I rush out of the toilet like some kind of crazy woman and finally...... I have reached the "founded" lecture room. (after lots of blur looks on my face..)
Luckily, they let me in, while the cute and round guy was briefing, I wear my robe... (I will show you how it looks like) Gosh, all of us look like Harry Potters...many harry potters..too bad we don't have the broom and wand??? Then after the briefing, off we go to the hall and sit.
The Graduation Ceremony began and I think..other than I am going to fall with my high heels and the stupid long robe, there isn't any thing I want to complain about. hahaha ( complain queen here..) And the buttons of the long robe keep went loose. When I went up the stage, the robe came off and I must pretend nothing happen and continue walking...faints.. (you guys, know like the hei she hui lao da, with big coats kind, my robe looks like the coat lor..)Then, I got my certificate and forced myself to hear about the introduction by the emcees of the scholars.(sorry, was tired..) Wow can u believe it? 22 distinctions in three years of her poly life..gosh, how she did that ah...?
After the whole ceremony, I go around taking photos (I've posted only the nice ones below, if you guys wanna see bigger image, double click the photo twice, this is the stupid robe I'm talking about). Haha, quite a happy and enjoyable one. Sad to say, my parents were not able to attend this graduation ceremony. At first, I didn't want to go..especially without my parents. But, my sistas persuaded me and a big thank you to you girls, I've really enjoyed myself...really!!
p.s: "All the best to you girls and to our future endeavours"
love.... jin
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9:04 am
Sunday, May 25, 2008
On last Saturday, I pretend that this matter didn't affect me much and went to the tuition centre as per normal. To be frank, it's like I need to muster up my courage to enter, it may sounds exaggerating to you guys, but I really felt ashamed to enter the place. After I finish my tuition, I'm shock to hear that another 2 more students decided to withdraw from the tuition centre.
This time round, I shall not come up with any more excuses. It's clearly stated there must be something wrong with my teaching skills, if not how come so many students are withdrawing from the tuition centre. I'm must admit that it's really my fault, I shall face up to it and learn from mistakes. Sorry to my auntie, I'm really sorry to cause so much trouble to you.
Since my attachment is coming, I shall pay full attention and really see how other teachers teach the kids in the primary school. I shall not just give up just like this cause I don't want my students to give up easily next time, I shall set an example first. This will be my learning experience, now I would know what are the problems will arise and I shall make it clear during my first lesson.
1st problem: to check my kids homework regularly, make sure they do it fast and hand it on time
2nd problem: I shall give clear explanations and han yu ping yin, cause parents say that they didn't see any written explanations by their kids. if not, they won't learn.
3rd problem: Have to build a strong rapport with parents and improve in my communication skills so as to explain to them better about their child's progress. (all parents are anxious about their own kids' performance
Last but not least, I must apologise to all the kids who have attended my tuition classes, they might not able to see my blog but I hope that they can feel that I'm sincere in teaching them. I admit that I lack experience therefore I might not be really good at explaining and translating things to them. But, there's one thing I can be sure of is, I'm really did it out of good well that I really want to help them. Sorry to those who attended my tuition classes and got poor results. :(
Since there's sad experience, there will also be happy one. The happy one is my private tuition's kid did really well. He is from English speaking family, so I am really worried for him at first. I really think of many ways to teach him, I made cards for him, play (word) games with him so that he can remember the words and the pronounciation better. I forced him to do assessment books, try to help him as much as I can. At the end of the day, he managed to score well for his chinese, 84%. * Clap hands for you..hehee.. His parents thanked me, at that point of time, I don't know how to describe the sort of feeling. It's like wow, I finally help somebody to score well, a consolation after the tuition centre's incident happened... At least, he make me realise that I still can be a teacher, it's just that I need to buck up. Thanks Ian, you definitely don't know how much you've encouraged me. :)
After the tuition, I went to visit my grandfather. He's now staying alone with a maid in one of small flats in Sin Ming Area. When I talked to him, he will smile every now and then. At that moment, I don't really know whether I should be happy or not. You must be wondering why, right?
For your information, my grandfather is a very strict person, he will never smile. But, ever since my grandmother passed away last year, he started to talk to himself more often. He did cry a few times after that incident, he misses my grandmother a lot. Then slowly, when he talk to us, he start to smile and laugh, we thought it's great, he's happier now. Who knows that it's actually a signal that he's not as clear- headed as before anymore? Now, he start to become senile, he don't remember who I am.
At first, he told my mother, your daughter grow up already and now become pretty girl, can married off. When I heard that, of course I'm happy cause my grandfather praise me. Then he called my mother (my fourth aunt's name), that means he mistook my mother as my fourth aunt. As for me, he thought I'm my younger cousin, faint. He cannot recognise me. Morever, this month I visited him quite often, almost every week. He don't know who I am...stunned... I hope that he will get better the next time round I visit him.
....Love, Pei Jin
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9:08 am
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Well, I've not been blogging for a long time. Recently, I'm quite upset about an incident. It happened on last Saturday. I went to teach at a tuition centre as usual at 9am (just to let you guys know, the tuition centre is opened by my aunt). Anyone who have younger cousins who are in primary school would have know that they got back their results for the mid year exams already. As a three months old tuition teacher, I am eager to know how my students are doing. I really hope that they can get good results,. If they score well, I really don't mind celebrating it with them. Since I'm already made my choice of being a teacher, I wanted to be a good one. The kind whereby she always try her best in teaching the kids and help in moulding their character. (I guess all teachers in the world would want to accomplish this aim)
Back to reality, when I'm having my lessons halfway, I saw a parent of my kids standing outside signaling the in-charge of the tuition centre to come out. I somehow have a hunch as in what's going to happen next. This parent did complain to me once before as in I didn't do my job as teacher.
1st Complaint: Every week when the kids go back, they need to complete one exercise in the assessment book. Then I will have to mark it. You know what primary school kids hate most for Chinese Exam Papers? They hate comprehension the most. So, they will tend to leave out the comprehension for me to fill in the blanks for them. For your information, the duration of the tuition is one and the half hour, therefore it's very hard for me to go through with them sometimes. Then, I will put a question mark in the comprehension and ask them to bring home to complete. I encourage my students to try on their own before they come and ask me. No point I give them all the answers and they learn nothing from it.
The boy still didn't do his work for the particular exercise and happened that the parent come and check his assessment book. So, imagine if you are the parent, you look at the assessment book, the comprehension with a big question mark and the comment there for that exercise. The following exercises are all completed cause it's without the comprehension. The parent will definitely misunderstand you that you just leave that exercise out and ignore his kid's progress. Faint..Help!! The best part is, your friend here is poor at explaining things and when she's nervous, she tend to stumble. So, she just admit that it's her negligence.
2nd Complaint: When the parent talk to the in charge outside, I was distracted cause I knew something bad is going to happen. I told myself this, "Pei Jin, what's going on outside, you can always find out later. Now, you are in the classroom, do your job properly as a teacher, your kids are with you now." Before I can even notice, the in charge come and knock on the "transparent" door (that's why i can see the parent out there). "Ms Chen, the parent photocopied his child's exam paper, please put it in the cabinet and I will call your aunt and let her know what happen." "Then how he did for his exam paper?" I asked. " "It's not really well done."
Shucks, I'm done for. When I hear it, I don't know I felt that there's a lump in my throat and I about to tear. I bear with it and tell myself, don't cry here. It's embarrassing. If I really want, I go home and do it. When lessons are over, I go and eat my lunch and accompany my mum. Until evening, I call my auntie. She told me that the parent wanna to draw out from the tuition and his studies deteriorate from 85 (band 1) to 70 (band 2). There's also another student in my class who did poorly too. Only one boy improve from band 3 to band one.
I was devastated, I feel that I'm responsible for their poor results. I told myself if this carry on, I might jeopardise my aunt's tuition centre's reputation. It's okay if it's my reputation alone but this is my aunt's hard work, I hope she can understand why I quit. Sorry about that.
Anyway, I just told her I going to teach two more weeks and I'm leaving cause I'll be attached under a primary school soon. (This is just part of the small reason, I can actually still go and help her if I wanted to) She asked, "Don't tell me you quit because of this incident? I replied," No, I scared I won't be able to handle when I'm attached to the primary school." In fact, I'm just afraid of putting her into trouble again so I might as well just quit. Call me an escapist if you want, I just don't want to affect her tuition centre's reputation.
Frankly speaking, that incident really did affect me. It affected me so much that I couldn't sleep well that night. But now, I've started to get over it and ponder over the mistakes I've made. No point brooding over it! I just let this be an experience for myself cause there might be more to come in my lifetime journey. Cheer up, Pei Jin!! (Haha, don't be disheartened)
P.S: This is just one of the incident that I find it worth remembering... and to revive my blog..hahaha
Love & Hugs, ...Jin
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The Lyrics
Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
and it was all in vain
Time starts to pass before
you know it you're frozen
Oh, but something happened
for the very first time with you
My heart was melted to the ground
found something true
And everyone's looking round
thinking I'm going crazy, baby
But I don't care what they say
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But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
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Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
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Trying hard not to hear
but they talk so loud
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my ears try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal is to
keep me from falling (Ohh...)
Oh, but nothing's greater than
the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me thinks
that I'm going crazy (Crazy) maybe (Maybe)
But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
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And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see
'Cause I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
Oh, you cut me open and I
I keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
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I keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
Oh you cut me open and I
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My Profile
Name: Chen Pei Jin
Age: 21
Birthday: 18th June 1987
Favourite Animal: Dog
Favourite Song: It's up there!
Favourite Movie: None..
Favourite Marine Life: Dolphins
My Wishlist
1st: Turn back time and bring her back..
2nd: All friends and family to be happy & healthy..
3rd: See real dolphins...at least once.. :)
