Today, I have a tiring day. Probably, I slept too late the last night. Well, I've been thinking about my life journey. Why my life turn out to be this way? I guess I shouldn't put so much concentration on all these. Since I'm into it, why not live my life to the fullest? Since I can't make anymore changes, I might as well make amendments to my life. I will try harder, even harder in this module, though somehow I don't feel it suits me. I saw all the comments I've received, I'm very touched, knowing there were still friends who were there for me.
Yesterday, I booked a cake online for my mum, wishing her Happy Mother's Day on this Sunday. I hope that she know how I really feel, my way of appreciating my love to her. I just want her to know I am still her daughter who will stick to her, even though I'm going to turn 21 next year. I might be an adult soon, but I still want to be her daughter who will "Sa Jiao" to her. Hope she won't find me annoying?! There are times when I quarrel with her, make her feel sad and angry, but she's definitely someone whom deserve my love more than anyone else, cause her love for me is far more that I can ever imagine in my entire life. When I fell sick in China, her anxiety really made me felt that I'm important to her. She was so lost that she almost bursted into tears. To such an extent, she commanded me to return back to Singapore, forget about serving the MOE bond, though I needed to pay MOE a huge sum of money. I guess all our mothers will care for us, so remember to give her a call and tell her how much you love her on this special day.
Back to the topic, today when I'm having lessons halfway, my "1988" friend, Pei Jun, produced a weird sound , "Jiang" ("Question Mark" popped out from my head)while she was holding my spectacle case, talking to it?! I looked at her with atonishment and asked her what had happened. Before she could even explained, she bursted out into laughter, I remembered her face was as red as a tomato. The next moment, she laughed until she cried. After our lessons ended, she told us she was playing with my spectacle case and talking to it, she probably needed to go Mental Hospital.When we went back to our hostel, I saw a butterfly on her umbrella in the balcony. Next moment, she went to sing a song in front of the butterfly, with her hands banging real hard onto the panes of the balcony door. The song goes like this : "Hu Die, Hu die, Chuang De Zhen Mei Li........."I'm really stunned. She's really a funny girl.
Recently, I have two friends feeling sad over certain matters. I feel really bad for them as I can't do much for them, their feelings really affected me, be it close or good friends. All I can do is to give my comments, if they can straighten out their thoughts, that will be really great! Sometimes, I feel bad and helpless so cause all I can do is to give advices, I can't allievate their pain, so I can only pray for them, hope that they can be happy...Please...
I also need to apologise on another matter. To my Sec Sch friends: I will reply all the emails you guys sent me, sorry for being so heartless, I still wanna to let you guys know I miss all of you badly. I hope all this will end soon....Do take care and help each other out, that's what friends are for. :)
I love all my friends to be happy...love you guys.......
Love & hugs.... Jin....
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11:29 pm
Music Video
The Lyrics
Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
and it was all in vain
Time starts to pass before
you know it you're frozen
Oh, but something happened
for the very first time with you
My heart was melted to the ground
found something true
And everyone's looking round
thinking I'm going crazy, baby
But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
I keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open
Trying hard not to hear
but they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill
my ears try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal is to
keep me from falling (Ohh...)
Oh, but nothing's greater than
the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me thinks
that I'm going crazy (Crazy) maybe (Maybe)
But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
I keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open
And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see
'Cause I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
Oh, you cut me open and I
I keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
Oh you cut me open and I
I keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
My Profile
Name: Chen Pei Jin
Age: 21
Birthday: 18th June 1987
Favourite Animal: Dog
Favourite Song: It's up there!
Favourite Movie: None..
Favourite Marine Life: Dolphins
My Wishlist
1st: Turn back time and bring her back..
2nd: All friends and family to be happy & healthy..
3rd: See real dolphins...at least once.. :)
