Well, I've not been blogging for a long time. Recently, I'm quite upset about an incident. It happened on last Saturday. I went to teach at a tuition centre as usual at 9am (just to let you guys know, the tuition centre is opened by my aunt). Anyone who have younger cousins who are in primary school would have know that they got back their results for the mid year exams already. As a three months old tuition teacher, I am eager to know how my students are doing. I really hope that they can get good results,. If they score well, I really don't mind celebrating it with them. Since I'm already made my choice of being a teacher, I wanted to be a good one. The kind whereby she always try her best in teaching the kids and help in moulding their character. (I guess all teachers in the world would want to accomplish this aim)
Back to reality, when I'm having my lessons halfway, I saw a parent of my kids standing outside signaling the in-charge of the tuition centre to come out. I somehow have a hunch as in what's going to happen next. This parent did complain to me once before as in I didn't do my job as teacher.
1st Complaint: Every week when the kids go back, they need to complete one exercise in the assessment book. Then I will have to mark it. You know what primary school kids hate most for Chinese Exam Papers? They hate comprehension the most. So, they will tend to leave out the comprehension for me to fill in the blanks for them. For your information, the duration of the tuition is one and the half hour, therefore it's very hard for me to go through with them sometimes. Then, I will put a question mark in the comprehension and ask them to bring home to complete. I encourage my students to try on their own before they come and ask me. No point I give them all the answers and they learn nothing from it.
The boy still didn't do his work for the particular exercise and happened that the parent come and check his assessment book. So, imagine if you are the parent, you look at the assessment book, the comprehension with a big question mark and the comment there for that exercise. The following exercises are all completed cause it's without the comprehension. The parent will definitely misunderstand you that you just leave that exercise out and ignore his kid's progress. Faint..Help!! The best part is, your friend here is poor at explaining things and when she's nervous, she tend to stumble. So, she just admit that it's her negligence.
2nd Complaint: When the parent talk to the in charge outside, I was distracted cause I knew something bad is going to happen. I told myself this, "Pei Jin, what's going on outside, you can always find out later. Now, you are in the classroom, do your job properly as a teacher, your kids are with you now." Before I can even notice, the in charge come and knock on the "transparent" door (that's why i can see the parent out there). "Ms Chen, the parent photocopied his child's exam paper, please put it in the cabinet and I will call your aunt and let her know what happen." "Then how he did for his exam paper?" I asked. " "It's not really well done."
Shucks, I'm done for. When I hear it, I don't know I felt that there's a lump in my throat and I about to tear. I bear with it and tell myself, don't cry here. It's embarrassing. If I really want, I go home and do it. When lessons are over, I go and eat my lunch and accompany my mum. Until evening, I call my auntie. She told me that the parent wanna to draw out from the tuition and his studies deteriorate from 85 (band 1) to 70 (band 2). There's also another student in my class who did poorly too. Only one boy improve from band 3 to band one.
I was devastated, I feel that I'm responsible for their poor results. I told myself if this carry on, I might jeopardise my aunt's tuition centre's reputation. It's okay if it's my reputation alone but this is my aunt's hard work, I hope she can understand why I quit. Sorry about that.
Anyway, I just told her I going to teach two more weeks and I'm leaving cause I'll be attached under a primary school soon. (This is just part of the small reason, I can actually still go and help her if I wanted to) She asked, "Don't tell me you quit because of this incident? I replied," No, I scared I won't be able to handle when I'm attached to the primary school." In fact, I'm just afraid of putting her into trouble again so I might as well just quit. Call me an escapist if you want, I just don't want to affect her tuition centre's reputation.
Frankly speaking, that incident really did affect me. It affected me so much that I couldn't sleep well that night. But now, I've started to get over it and ponder over the mistakes I've made. No point brooding over it! I just let this be an experience for myself cause there might be more to come in my lifetime journey. Cheer up, Pei Jin!! (Haha, don't be disheartened)
P.S: This is just one of the incident that I find it worth remembering... and to revive my blog..hahaha
Love & Hugs, ...Jin
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The Lyrics
Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
and it was all in vain
Time starts to pass before
you know it you're frozen
Oh, but something happened
for the very first time with you
My heart was melted to the ground
found something true
And everyone's looking round
thinking I'm going crazy, baby
But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
I keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open
Trying hard not to hear
but they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill
my ears try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal is to
keep me from falling (Ohh...)
Oh, but nothing's greater than
the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me thinks
that I'm going crazy (Crazy) maybe (Maybe)
But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
I keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open
And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see
'Cause I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
Oh, you cut me open and I
I keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
Oh you cut me open and I
I keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
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Name: Chen Pei Jin
Age: 21
Birthday: 18th June 1987
Favourite Animal: Dog
Favourite Song: It's up there!
Favourite Movie: None..
Favourite Marine Life: Dolphins
My Wishlist
1st: Turn back time and bring her back..
2nd: All friends and family to be happy & healthy..
3rd: See real dolphins...at least once.. :)
