On last Saturday, I pretend that this matter didn't affect me much and went to the tuition centre as per normal. To be frank, it's like I need to muster up my courage to enter, it may sounds exaggerating to you guys, but I really felt ashamed to enter the place. After I finish my tuition, I'm shock to hear that another 2 more students decided to withdraw from the tuition centre.
This time round, I shall not come up with any more excuses. It's clearly stated there must be something wrong with my teaching skills, if not how come so many students are withdrawing from the tuition centre. I'm must admit that it's really my fault, I shall face up to it and learn from mistakes. Sorry to my auntie, I'm really sorry to cause so much trouble to you.
Since my attachment is coming, I shall pay full attention and really see how other teachers teach the kids in the primary school. I shall not just give up just like this cause I don't want my students to give up easily next time, I shall set an example first. This will be my learning experience, now I would know what are the problems will arise and I shall make it clear during my first lesson.
1st problem: to check my kids homework regularly, make sure they do it fast and hand it on time
2nd problem: I shall give clear explanations and han yu ping yin, cause parents say that they didn't see any written explanations by their kids. if not, they won't learn.
3rd problem: Have to build a strong rapport with parents and improve in my communication skills so as to explain to them better about their child's progress. (all parents are anxious about their own kids' performance
Last but not least, I must apologise to all the kids who have attended my tuition classes, they might not able to see my blog but I hope that they can feel that I'm sincere in teaching them. I admit that I lack experience therefore I might not be really good at explaining and translating things to them. But, there's one thing I can be sure of is, I'm really did it out of good well that I really want to help them. Sorry to those who attended my tuition classes and got poor results. :(
Since there's sad experience, there will also be happy one. The happy one is my private tuition's kid did really well. He is from English speaking family, so I am really worried for him at first. I really think of many ways to teach him, I made cards for him, play (word) games with him so that he can remember the words and the pronounciation better. I forced him to do assessment books, try to help him as much as I can. At the end of the day, he managed to score well for his chinese, 84%. * Clap hands for you..hehee.. His parents thanked me, at that point of time, I don't know how to describe the sort of feeling. It's like wow, I finally help somebody to score well, a consolation after the tuition centre's incident happened... At least, he make me realise that I still can be a teacher, it's just that I need to buck up. Thanks Ian, you definitely don't know how much you've encouraged me. :)
After the tuition, I went to visit my grandfather. He's now staying alone with a maid in one of small flats in Sin Ming Area. When I talked to him, he will smile every now and then. At that moment, I don't really know whether I should be happy or not. You must be wondering why, right?
For your information, my grandfather is a very strict person, he will never smile. But, ever since my grandmother passed away last year, he started to talk to himself more often. He did cry a few times after that incident, he misses my grandmother a lot. Then slowly, when he talk to us, he start to smile and laugh, we thought it's great, he's happier now. Who knows that it's actually a signal that he's not as clear- headed as before anymore? Now, he start to become senile, he don't remember who I am.
At first, he told my mother, your daughter grow up already and now become pretty girl, can married off. When I heard that, of course I'm happy cause my grandfather praise me. Then he called my mother (my fourth aunt's name), that means he mistook my mother as my fourth aunt. As for me, he thought I'm my younger cousin, faint. He cannot recognise me. Morever, this month I visited him quite often, almost every week. He don't know who I am...stunned... I hope that he will get better the next time round I visit him.
....Love, Pei Jin
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Music Video
The Lyrics
Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
and it was all in vain
Time starts to pass before
you know it you're frozen
Oh, but something happened
for the very first time with you
My heart was melted to the ground
found something true
And everyone's looking round
thinking I'm going crazy, baby
But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
I keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open
Trying hard not to hear
but they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill
my ears try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal is to
keep me from falling (Ohh...)
Oh, but nothing's greater than
the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me thinks
that I'm going crazy (Crazy) maybe (Maybe)
But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
I keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open
And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see
'Cause I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
Oh, you cut me open and I
I keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
Oh you cut me open and I
I keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
My Profile
Name: Chen Pei Jin
Age: 21
Birthday: 18th June 1987
Favourite Animal: Dog
Favourite Song: It's up there!
Favourite Movie: None..
Favourite Marine Life: Dolphins
My Wishlist
1st: Turn back time and bring her back..
2nd: All friends and family to be happy & healthy..
3rd: See real dolphins...at least once.. :)
